Sorry

Some of them
actually
loved me.

I am sorry
most of all
for that.

Lynne might have
if I had let her,
I think Kara did.

Gina never
had a chance.

I was too
afraid.

Some of them
loved the idea
of a man who
would turn his
back on God.
Blame him
for the girl who
sang his songs.

One asked
what does she
have
that I
don't.

She would stare
at the photos
framed on my wall
and say,

am I not
as pretty?

don't I
love art?

do I not
do the things
you craved her
to do?

She loved me

and for that
I am sorriest
of all.