Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Enough



She was not the prettiest
girl in school
but she was still
The Queen.

She held onto her
goods
as long as she could,
then settled
for a husband
she didn’t love.

When that
didn’t last
she went back
to school
and didn’t make
friends,
a 4.0 in the
end.

At 30 she blossomed,

little blue birds
flitted about her head
 
and every man, women,
and child fell
in love with
her,

and it was almost
Enough.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Haiku

An anime girl
named Yuki, I fell in love
with an inked angel.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Jam Baby Jam




Jazz Cats
in dark shades
and skinny ties
go with
tall blondes
with great
pins
like the chocolate
and peanut butter
smash-ups
of chance and
circumstance
candy bar commercials
from my childhood.

It is bigger
than all of us.
It is the heavenly
music sung to angels
by man
at horn and keys.

The winged creatures
dig it, and the hip
guys dig them right back.

It was true
then
and it true
now.

If you want
a shot
at love
with dames
like that
forget the poems
and get
an album by
Monk or Bird
and just jam baby.

Just jam baby.



Thanks to the Henry Nemo archives. The photo above is used with their courtesy and permission.  

Black Muse



My muse,
the one who
lives
inside of me,
has gone
Dark.

She is mad.

She no longer
shares
her tales
of love
with me.

She speaks
in breathy
whispers
of  heartache,

she dares me
to die,
to pen a poetic
last note
and leave
my words
behind.

She laughs
at my pain.

She does not
know
that she remains
my Muse,

that there
is beauty still,
in the sadness.

There is art
in my 
brokenness.

The tearing away
at a man
by the
blackest Muse,

is still
better than
no muse

at all.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Worse Again


Having failed
Again
To have her
Love

He gave in
Again
To a hate filled
Mind.

He wrote
Again
With his stabbing
Pen

Cutting
Them both
With his slashing
Words.

Having  failed
Again,

He made things
Worse.

Le Femme


Some say he'd gone mad in early May
pacing weary torturous nights
in his white shirt sleeves rolled up
stained with days of sweat and paint
lusting for the perfect woman in his mind
she called him
to the blank canvas's throb
to his paints and blunt mixing knife

he dipped his brush in crimson red
and first painted a pulse
that could only beat for his crazed eyes
the gold in her hair blazed on his canvas
dim light caught the twinkle in her blue eyes
he painted her luscious lips with his bourbon drenched mouth
his brush stroked her curves to fit perfectly in his arms
trill of her laughter on his Gitanes yellowed fingertips
he brushed her spirit in colors of spring

some say dawn squeezed its light through rain washed panes
crept on the floor as a pale moon lingered in May sky
it cast a transparent linen on his broken body
his paint brush dug deep in his heart
it found foot prints in his colors on the ground
of a perfect woman gone feral outside his mind
a blank canvas torn to shreds


Silva Zanoyan Merjanian

May 4, 2013

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Pestidigitation





You seemed

to love me

from the first

smile.



Enchanted

as I was

by your laughing

eyes,



I was lost

in their

hocus pocus

but



it was

the cut deeply

by life's

Houdini swords

piercing the trunk 
escape act;

the rusted razor

circumstance,

on wrists dangling

clinched 
white glove
fists,



the bluest smoke

and troublesome

mirrors

of the world

that

made us feel

we had known

each other


unending.
Lovers clutch

stretched  across
an age of majik
boundless

in time.



Hot blooded passion

coupled oddly

with cold feet

and buttocks,

and under the

covers,

a warmest heart

embrace,



I emptied

myself

into that smile.



Mornings

curtain call-

encore then

cigarettes

and French Press

coffee outside,


slow as abracadabra


then with

no sense of
showmanship or

slight of hand

you told me.
You told me of 
your dreams.



I couldn’t be

the one.


I said it wouldn’t

be fair to

you,


much as I

would love to

live happy

lost

in your Sirens

Spell.



Tomorrows children

must find another

Father,

a better man
than I

had ever been.



Part of me disappears

before your very

eyes,



now you see-

now you don’t:


nothing up my

sleeve.



Out of nothing

disappointed tears-


collateral damage,

of a trick bag

I have never

quite

unpacked.