Only the moon
knew
of their love.
An ethereal
passion that was
not bound
by time
or geography.
Only the sun
and the rains
could understand it.
In dreams
and verse
they danced
with his
calloused
working man
hands clasping
her silken waist.
They had met
a thousand times
Dublin and Dresden
Mozambique and Marseille
and in rolling hills and deserts.
Always they loved.
She had been
a dancer,
a Queen,
and once
on a tiny
Pacific island,
she was worshipped
as a Goddess.
His lives
mundane
in contrast,
but always he
found her
and always
they laid down
in the clouds
and floated in passion.
Just after a war
in pillaged South
they wandered
dirt roads
and she sang
to him,
he rushed to
show her his
favorite place.
They were
eternally destined,
but only
the moon knew
of their love.
Same blog: third name- I can't help myself. Same kind of stuff; a little poetry, a little prose, a little drunkalogue. Some adult themes, and language. Good Times.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Having Fallen in Love
There had been women.
Some of them
said they loved me.
I guess some of them
I even loved,
but I had never
fallen in love
until I was
nearly fifty years old
She seemed perfect.
We met at a freaky
little hippy church
downtown and she was
sunshine, she was fire.
I asked her if
she would let me
write love for her,
smiling she said
yes to me and
I gave her my heart.
On Tuesdays we would
paint in plate glass light
and listen to music
and sometimes our
fingers would touch
or she would tussle
my hair and I would
be drunk from her
presence. I fell in love
with her in that way
that only the most
foolish hearts can know.
When she was through
with me I wanted to die,
and others could see it,
people waited for it to
happen in that peculiar
way that morbid racecar
fans wait for mortal crashes.
But I didn't kill myself,
there was no need,
for having known the
elation of falling deeply
in love like that then
having it snatched
away was like
not being alive
anymore. Suicide
would just be redundant.
Some of them
said they loved me.
I guess some of them
I even loved,
but I had never
fallen in love
until I was
nearly fifty years old
She seemed perfect.
We met at a freaky
little hippy church
downtown and she was
sunshine, she was fire.
I asked her if
she would let me
write love for her,
smiling she said
yes to me and
I gave her my heart.
On Tuesdays we would
paint in plate glass light
and listen to music
and sometimes our
fingers would touch
or she would tussle
my hair and I would
be drunk from her
presence. I fell in love
with her in that way
that only the most
foolish hearts can know.
When she was through
with me I wanted to die,
and others could see it,
people waited for it to
happen in that peculiar
way that morbid racecar
fans wait for mortal crashes.
But I didn't kill myself,
there was no need,
for having known the
elation of falling deeply
in love like that then
having it snatched
away was like
not being alive
anymore. Suicide
would just be redundant.
Man to Man
A man now.
The time
has passed
so quickly.
Faster
than sunlight
the scores
of seasons
pass
and you
are no longer
tiny
and frail
and swaddled.
Neither are
you the
adventurous
young boy
on a first bicycle,
fresh unshod,
free of training
wheels just
as you were
free of the
constant
attention of
frightened
first time parents.
You are
a young man
now and not
the clever teen
so much smarter
than anyone
else he knew,
not the angry
half child,
half adult
who maybe
never understood
why your
father was
not around,
why it was
that he didn't
even call.
You are grown
now and I
wish I could
explain to
you what it
has been like
for me too.
I can't.
I mean you
know
about the dope
and the long term rehabs
and the trips to tumble lock grey prisons.
You know
I have failed
at a being a human
in the same way
that I failed you
as a father.
It cheapens
how you must
have hurt,
the feelings
you must
have known
lying alone
at night in
my sisters
home,
your home,
for me to
make excuses
of breakdowns
or to try and
explain
how I felt
the need
to wipe away
hot tears
with arm loads
of sticking pricks.
I can only
ask you
man to man
to give me
another shot
at knowing
you
at loving
you
at having
you
love me.
The time
has passed
so quickly.
Faster
than sunlight
the scores
of seasons
pass
and you
are no longer
tiny
and frail
and swaddled.
Neither are
you the
adventurous
young boy
on a first bicycle,
fresh unshod,
free of training
wheels just
as you were
free of the
constant
attention of
frightened
first time parents.
You are
a young man
now and not
the clever teen
so much smarter
than anyone
else he knew,
not the angry
half child,
half adult
who maybe
never understood
why your
father was
not around,
why it was
that he didn't
even call.
You are grown
now and I
wish I could
explain to
you what it
has been like
for me too.
I can't.
I mean you
know
about the dope
and the long term rehabs
and the trips to tumble lock grey prisons.
You know
I have failed
at a being a human
in the same way
that I failed you
as a father.
It cheapens
how you must
have hurt,
the feelings
you must
have known
lying alone
at night in
my sisters
home,
your home,
for me to
make excuses
of breakdowns
or to try and
explain
how I felt
the need
to wipe away
hot tears
with arm loads
of sticking pricks.
I can only
ask you
man to man
to give me
another shot
at knowing
you
at loving
you
at having
you
love me.
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