They
say you can
die
of a
broken
heart
she
said to me
once
but
I
am more
likely
to get
hit by a
car
We were
castaway people
from the
other side
of the
glass
she
had lived
a crumpled
dollar bill life
like
a tattoo
on Downtowns
arm
her
kisses tasted
like
lipstick and
vodka
I
was thinking
about
a sober Chistmas
but
she just
shook
her head
She
had hardluck
blues
Quality
House liters
the only cure
When
I would
leave
her,
to walk the
eight blocks
to the liquor store
her
face would be grey
as a cypress barn
When
I would
come back from
day labor
mornings
with
the brown paper
package
her
eyes would light
up like
I
just got out
of prison
I
see her
still
a thousand faces
sad old ladies
giddy little girls
she
was the saddest
muse
she
died of a
broken heart
Same blog: third name- I can't help myself. Same kind of stuff; a little poetry, a little prose, a little drunkalogue. Some adult themes, and language. Good Times.
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Other Side
The people from
the other side
of the glass
don't drink
in the clubs
with the white-tooth
crowd laughing.
The people
from the other
side of the glass
gather at places
filled with the
frowning uglies:
the sad and angry,
the given up.
The people from the
other side,
the other side ,
the other side of the glass
dont dance
and kiss each others
cheeks upon meeting,
they just check
their reflections in
liqour store doors
to make sure they
are still there.
the other side
of the glass
don't drink
in the clubs
with the white-tooth
crowd laughing.
The people
from the other
side of the glass
gather at places
filled with the
frowning uglies:
the sad and angry,
the given up.
The people from the
other side,
the other side ,
the other side of the glass
dont dance
and kiss each others
cheeks upon meeting,
they just check
their reflections in
liqour store doors
to make sure they
are still there.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Writers Conference
Drinks with Buk, and
I'm half in the bag
when Miller Williams
shows up, he is from Hoxie
not far from where
I grew up and
I love his voice,
sort of half chant -half chat.
The bird blows his horn
for us and sometimes it's
Monk on piano,
but they are subtle.
Not like Buk,
he grabs me by
the cajones,
jars me into thought.
You've got to come
at 'em from
where you are
Got to be real with 'em.
I set aside his words
and stir the cubes
in my glass with my
finger, taste its wetness.
Crossing to the kitchenette,
the other side of the room,
I bump into Billy Collins
a new friend to me
but great for a laugh.
Digression is the key,
reasonably good grammar,
and a smooth digression.
Then, in that great way
he has, he makes me
smile like we have
a shared secret.
Monk attacks the keys,
like a meth laden
ninja with a fist full of
chinese throwing stars.
He doesn't say much
but now I am thinking
about cool broken rhythms
and improv technique.
Hungry.
Maybe some scrambled eggs
and whiskey.Monday, November 21, 2011
crazy deb needs a new pair of shoes
crazy deb was
a prom queen
gone bad
and she stood
and cried
and prayed
one day like
she had
learned in vacation
bible school
all that time
ago over
tuna sandwiches
and red
kool aid
jesus what
she wouldnt do
for a hit of dope
but god didnt care
or the
tricks were scared
so she went
back to the
little room
where she stayed
and stared
on better days
at the
soiled curtains
and black greasy hand
stains
around the
doorknob door
and shadows
in the corners
and the pulls
on the drawers
unblinking
thinking of the
tattered carpet floor
and her scuffed soled
shoes by the bathroom
were tired and ready
to sleep
and they were
sick of getting high
and beating
down the street
or flying
near her ears
on her toe curled feet
so
they kicked back and settled
down
while the crazy prom queen
came unwound
a prom queen
gone bad
and she stood
and cried
and prayed
one day like
she had
learned in vacation
bible school
all that time
ago over
tuna sandwiches
and red
kool aid
jesus what
she wouldnt do
for a hit of dope
but god didnt care
or the
tricks were scared
so she went
back to the
little room
where she stayed
and stared
on better days
at the
soiled curtains
and black greasy hand
stains
around the
doorknob door
and shadows
in the corners
and the pulls
on the drawers
unblinking
thinking of the
tattered carpet floor
and her scuffed soled
shoes by the bathroom
were tired and ready
to sleep
and they were
sick of getting high
and beating
down the street
or flying
near her ears
on her toe curled feet
so
they kicked back and settled
down
while the crazy prom queen
came unwound
Monday, October 31, 2011
The Forsaken
Sinners and Saints
of Second Street
shift restlessly and
knelt and prayed.
Heavenly Sun passed
behind thorny crowned
buildings downtown
on a slow baptismal
plunge into the river.
A double minded man
offered up dime stone
burnt offerings
to gods to foul
have names.
Lost and blind
panhandlers shared
potluck dumpster
offerings and
screw top bottles
of wine
The mentally ill
on pharmaceutical fasts
had visions and
dreamt dreams.
A lonely angel
flapped her wings-
unhappily, impatiently-
and Jesus whispered
with Jackie Masons voice
in my ear.
I turned away
and Jackie shrugged,
hands deep in his pockets,
I turned my back
and Jesus wept.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Hope Erodes
A river runs
black and white
and red
and yellow.
A river runs,
with old men,
and young,
women and
children.
Flowing over
church steps,
into basements,
into souplines,
and flophouses.
They surge forward,
coarsing and rolling,
hungry and displaced.
A river runs
through the country,
through the Delta,
through the state.
A river and it's
thousands of tributaries
runs and flows
and hope erodes.
Who will bend backs
to change its course?
Who will build dams
to stop it?
black and white
and red
and yellow.
A river runs,
with old men,
and young,
women and
children.
Flowing over
church steps,
into basements,
into souplines,
and flophouses.
They surge forward,
coarsing and rolling,
hungry and displaced.
A river runs
through the country,
through the Delta,
through the state.
A river and it's
thousands of tributaries
runs and flows
and hope erodes.
Who will bend backs
to change its course?
Who will build dams
to stop it?
Whistle
In her all alone time
she smiled
half crooked smiles
and whispered
his name aloud
sounding wicked
as red.
Sometimes thinking
back to the first
time she had seen him
whistling
a sad nameless tune.
She didn't exactly
teach Sunday school
but she prayed at night
and called Mother often
and kept teddy bears
and trinkets
and lived well.
Her high school
Knight had lost his shine
and most of his hair.
He sold cars
and watched television
and ate Tums.
Arianna's beauty
was unfaded.
She was like music
heard from far away
drawing you near.
Like Hamlin's rat
he came to her song.
He was the talk
of the big little town
they lived in,
and whenever the
old women mentioned him
they shook their heads
and made comparisons
to the Grandfather he'd
come to see whose
own grandfather
had fought the English
with his face painted blue
and sired the first
of their line to
come to America.
He sat on a park bench
drinking bourbon
from a paper sack
and felt a twinge of guilt
that he didn't like Scotch.
Listening to trains
and their slow
metered steps moving along
tracks quickening
to roaring din.
Lighting a smoke
he thought of her.
Something kind of close
to love, he smiled
then picked up
his ditty and whistling
headed out of town.
she smiled
half crooked smiles
and whispered
his name aloud
sounding wicked
as red.
Sometimes thinking
back to the first
time she had seen him
whistling
a sad nameless tune.
She didn't exactly
teach Sunday school
but she prayed at night
and called Mother often
and kept teddy bears
and trinkets
and lived well.
Her high school
Knight had lost his shine
and most of his hair.
He sold cars
and watched television
and ate Tums.
Arianna's beauty
was unfaded.
She was like music
heard from far away
drawing you near.
Like Hamlin's rat
he came to her song.
He was the talk
of the big little town
they lived in,
and whenever the
old women mentioned him
they shook their heads
and made comparisons
to the Grandfather he'd
come to see whose
own grandfather
had fought the English
with his face painted blue
and sired the first
of their line to
come to America.
He sat on a park bench
drinking bourbon
from a paper sack
and felt a twinge of guilt
that he didn't like Scotch.
Listening to trains
and their slow
metered steps moving along
tracks quickening
to roaring din.
Lighting a smoke
he thought of her.
Something kind of close
to love, he smiled
then picked up
his ditty and whistling
headed out of town.
Friday, October 28, 2011
Capitol Mornings 14
The neck tied
shoe shined and
the lipsticked
pantsuited
rush into days
grinding hours,
past Quick-marts
and pawnshops
and Mexican restaurants
to grey and glass
office buildings
reaching head and shoulders
towards a
cotton candy sky.
RED
YELLOW
GREEN LIGHT
intersections crowded,
used car lot specials
and tool-laden pick-ups
and Mc Single moms
late for Mc Shifts
at Mc Dead-end jobs.
The sad-faced unshaven
wait with cardboard signs
and upturned palms;
gravel-voiced pleas
smell faintly
of yesterday's drink.
Little Rock stretches
and yawns and shakes herself awake;
and blowing on Turkish coffee too hot to drink,
I bid her Good Morning and open my laptop waiting
for the day to write itself.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
I never wonder
I never wonder
why you love me
You are so filled
with affection you
cannot contain the magic
.
Instead I wonder
why you stay.
Why you stay
and listen to my
excuses for losing
another job, and
tell me things will
be better soon
Why you sit quietly
and listen to me
as I drink and
become more brilliant
by the minute
until finally
I am just an ass
who pisses in
the closet not
knowing where
I am.
Why you would
scrap together the
last few dollars
to get me a bottle
even though you
never had a drink
in your life and
could use a new brassiere
because the old one
is worn out and
it's the only one
you've got.
I often wonder at
night after you have
drifted off why it is
that you stay
with a mean old
bastard who
calls himself a poet,
based on the pile
of rejection slips
stacked up
like some great
paper mountain
waiting to be scaled
by only
the bravest souls.
Why, I wonder
do you weep sometimes
when I read my words
aloud to you,
when you are so
tough on the rest
of the world
a lioness with
bared teeth
at the ready
I never wonder
why I keep on loving you
forever,
though I don't
deserve to.
why you love me
You are so filled
with affection you
cannot contain the magic
.
Instead I wonder
why you stay.
Why you stay
and listen to my
excuses for losing
another job, and
tell me things will
be better soon
Why you sit quietly
and listen to me
as I drink and
become more brilliant
by the minute
until finally
I am just an ass
who pisses in
the closet not
knowing where
I am.
Why you would
scrap together the
last few dollars
to get me a bottle
even though you
never had a drink
in your life and
could use a new brassiere
because the old one
is worn out and
it's the only one
you've got.
I often wonder at
night after you have
drifted off why it is
that you stay
with a mean old
bastard who
calls himself a poet,
based on the pile
of rejection slips
stacked up
like some great
paper mountain
waiting to be scaled
by only
the bravest souls.
Why, I wonder
do you weep sometimes
when I read my words
aloud to you,
when you are so
tough on the rest
of the world
a lioness with
bared teeth
at the ready
I never wonder
why I keep on loving you
forever,
though I don't
deserve to.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Summertime
There were three children,
two boys and a girl,
though she remained
unaffected by roles
dictated by cultural whim.
Summers kept them
busy outdoors seeking
new adventures
on the farm built
with Grandfathers hands.
The hottest days found
them spraying each other
with the waterhose or
riding castoff bicycles on
hard packed dirt road.
Sometimes they would sit
in silence for an hour or more
searching for lucky clover
in the same yard Grandmother
once swept with a broom.
Rarely did they see
miles away neighbors
or others their own age
and the bond they shared
was stronger still.
Years later, sister
became a woman
and the brothers fell
for the same girl,
but shared memories
of summertime
never change.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Paula
Things don't happen by chance,
that's what she said
When we inexplicably became
Facebook friends.
I followed her link to a site
and saw her paintings.
And photos.
I saw her soul.
I never do this sort of thing.
I've never chatted with a stranger.
She had the bluest eyes,
the funniest way of talking,
she had a tortured past.
I had an adult beverage,
and unlimited minutes.
We talked every night for hours
like two teens who'd never loved
And she came to visit once.
She brought paints and poems
and a great glass for drinking.
It was like striking a wooden match
to life, bursting brilliant with flame.
But I dropped it before the burn,
a little scared I guess, and
I haven't seen her since.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Again
And just as the sun begins,
in frozen yogurt hues,
the third hand car with its
grinding clutch and
its squeaking brakes
rounds the corner
creeping guiltily home
and she is relieved that
he is not dead
or locked up in jail.
She stands in the open
doorway hurt and angry and
scared that he'll never
quit binging and grow up
to be a father to the boy.
That the next may be the last.
She slams the door shut.
This is it then, he thinks,
she will leave me. This is the
last time, I swear it.
One last chance.
He is sorry
again.
You're so special? You're sad!
You can't stand to be with me?
I see it coming you know...
I am not stupid, just because
I don't say....
Tortured soul artist? So...
special? You hurt us-
you hurt me. Nobody even reads that
shit but me.
Come to bed, I love you.
And so it goes, a hundred,
maybe a thousand times more-
and it will be this
one day
that makes him sad.
in frozen yogurt hues,
the third hand car with its
grinding clutch and
its squeaking brakes
rounds the corner
creeping guiltily home
and she is relieved that
he is not dead
or locked up in jail.
She stands in the open
doorway hurt and angry and
scared that he'll never
quit binging and grow up
to be a father to the boy.
That the next may be the last.
She slams the door shut.
This is it then, he thinks,
she will leave me. This is the
last time, I swear it.
One last chance.
He is sorry
again.
You're so special? You're sad!
You can't stand to be with me?
I see it coming you know...
I am not stupid, just because
I don't say....
Tortured soul artist? So...
special? You hurt us-
you hurt me. Nobody even reads that
shit but me.
Come to bed, I love you.
And so it goes, a hundred,
maybe a thousand times more-
and it will be this
one day
that makes him sad.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Great Book
Saturday, June 25, 2011
If...
If I won a million bucks,
I'd say God was fast asleep
and Ol' Scratch was in a hurry
to see me, but I'd go.
I'd go back to the sidewalks
where I used to sleep,
to the soup lines where I waited,
drunk or hungover, for a meal.
I'd go see Mouthwash Jimmy
and Crazy Red and Drunk Tammy
who turns tricks with strangers
for the ashtray change.
I'd be Santa Claus, Elvis with an extra
caddy, Jesus with a loaf and a fish, all
for the people who loved me sometimes
and shared their next to nothing with me.
I'd cop dope for the junkies, and
buy bottles of booze for the drunks,
I'd let the girls sit a while and rest
those sidewalk strollin' feet for once.
Wouldn't try and change a soul,
bow a head, or save a life but
I'd share a million with Red, and Jimmy
and the girls who sometimes love me.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Uncle
So your sure he's out,
Dad whispered to Mom
content that I was
watching cartoons
and wouldn't hear.
I learned more stuff
that way- doing that
Zombie stare
in front of the TV.
Sure I'm sure
I got an email from
the department of
corrections- so if
anybody wanted to
go to his parole thingee.
Okay, my dad said,
just dont take any
collect calls.
I almost forgot about it,
then on Easter sunday
we are all sitting there,
in our usual places- me,
Mom and Dad, and
my big sister all in a row
on our pew six
from the front
when this guy wearing
a shiny suit walks in,
and walks right up
and sits with us.
My dad just slides over
and lets him
have the outside,
the Pastor nods at him
and the others keep
turning in thier seats to look.
My dad and him whisper back
and forth and giggle
and the Pastor
looks over again.
After church we all
go out to eat and
him and my dad
drive fast, racing-
and sis was scared
and Mom looked mad
but I wasn't sure.
After dinner him and Dad
fought for the check
and Dad ended up with it-
so he gives me a
hundred dollar bill
and says split that
with your sister.
After that I never
really saw him again
but I did hear lots of stories.
Dad passed a couple of
years back, and Mom
doesn't know but
I write my uncle letters
and send him money
in the fed joint where
he's at up North.
Dad whispered to Mom
content that I was
watching cartoons
and wouldn't hear.
I learned more stuff
that way- doing that
Zombie stare
in front of the TV.
Sure I'm sure
I got an email from
the department of
corrections- so if
anybody wanted to
go to his parole thingee.
Okay, my dad said,
just dont take any
collect calls.
I almost forgot about it,
then on Easter sunday
we are all sitting there,
in our usual places- me,
Mom and Dad, and
my big sister all in a row
on our pew six
from the front
when this guy wearing
a shiny suit walks in,
and walks right up
and sits with us.
My dad just slides over
and lets him
have the outside,
the Pastor nods at him
and the others keep
turning in thier seats to look.
My dad and him whisper back
and forth and giggle
and the Pastor
looks over again.
After church we all
go out to eat and
him and my dad
drive fast, racing-
and sis was scared
and Mom looked mad
but I wasn't sure.
After dinner him and Dad
fought for the check
and Dad ended up with it-
so he gives me a
hundred dollar bill
and says split that
with your sister.
After that I never
really saw him again
but I did hear lots of stories.
Dad passed a couple of
years back, and Mom
doesn't know but
I write my uncle letters
and send him money
in the fed joint where
he's at up North.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Passing By
You eat
Chef Boyardee
spaghetti and meatballs
right out of
the pan you
warmed them in,
and read the
words of Keasey
and Plath
and Cassidy
sitting on a
ten dollar sofa
that you picked
up at Goodwill
with the help
of a buddy who
owns a truck
and keeps a cooler
filled with beer
in the back,
most of the time.
And you try
to remember
what it was like
before
in the new
brick house,
wife and kids
sitting at your feet.
Then wiping
the orange grease
from your fingers,
onto the leg of
your pants
you think to yourself:
the past
is the only thing
more frightening
than the future.
Chef Boyardee
spaghetti and meatballs
right out of
the pan you
warmed them in,
and read the
words of Keasey
and Plath
and Cassidy
sitting on a
ten dollar sofa
that you picked
up at Goodwill
with the help
of a buddy who
owns a truck
and keeps a cooler
filled with beer
in the back,
most of the time.
And you try
to remember
what it was like
before
in the new
brick house,
wife and kids
sitting at your feet.
Then wiping
the orange grease
from your fingers,
onto the leg of
your pants
you think to yourself:
the past
is the only thing
more frightening
than the future.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Grand Slam and a Hooker at Three A.M.
The saddest guy
I've ever
known
painted 10,000
self portraits
and even
wrote an opera
about his life.
Some days
he'd shave
and be stuck
for hours
trying
to see his
own soul.
In bars,
the others
would crowd
around him:
he would sing and
tell jokes
and he had a smile
that no one
could look
look away from.
To him
women were
like ants
drawn to the
fresh dropped
and
half meltedice cream cone
that was
his life.
17 to 70
they all wanted
to save him,
make him better,
fix him.
Only the ones
who were the
most melancholy
appealed to him
and they
just as a way
to look
into the mirror
while sitting
in an orange
vinyl booth
in a darkened
corner
in the back
of Denny's
with the girls
who strolled in the night.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Broken Hope Dreams
Sweat pours
from the heavy
bottomed tumbler,
and the ice cubes
and amber liquid
as shiny
as yesterdays
Sunday shoes.
The whiskey ninjas
flip and fight
in my blood and
brain, killing
the past and all
it's hurts.
Killing good times
and bad, because
the good ones
hurt most of all.
The Arkansasheat challenges
a fresh drink to
a fist fight,
wearing away
at comfort and
coolness.
In hand
and soul.
A watered down drink
and broken hope dreams,
are all there are some days.Lucky Guy
Didn't work today
the day labor place sent
a black guy named Willie
'cause he's got a car.
Too damned old to
be clearing dishes
off table's for the
wealthy folks, who
came to stay at the
swanky high rise
hotel in WestLittle Rock anyway.
Woke up thinking
of my 15 year old
daughter, she hates
me, and makes no
bones about it. Out
of smokes, I walk
to the corner for
a pack, a 6 pack of
cokes for mixers
and a two dollar
scratch off ticket.
Damn, I won 30 bucks-
I'm a lucky guy.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Distilled Destiny
If angels could disco
and demons would cry
I'd lay down my bottle
without asking why,
but fortune is fickle
as Damacles' sword
and humble menservants
will never be Lord.
When pigs are all Jewish
and Hindu's eat steak
then none of my nightmares
will keep me awake
but the oceans are angry,
the sun sleeps in the west,
children still skin knees,
Moms hope they know best.
The fattest of freemen
are prisoners of fate;
so pour me a whiskey
before it's too late.
and demons would cry
I'd lay down my bottle
without asking why,
but fortune is fickle
as Damacles' sword
and humble menservants
will never be Lord.
When pigs are all Jewish
and Hindu's eat steak
then none of my nightmares
will keep me awake
but the oceans are angry,
the sun sleeps in the west,
children still skin knees,
Moms hope they know best.
The fattest of freemen
are prisoners of fate;
so pour me a whiskey
before it's too late.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
We Talked of Coleridge
She taught English
second semester
of my senior year.
Straight from the University,
she seemed so
enlightened.
I believe it's called a crush.
We talked
of Byron and Coleridge,
she smiled
at my enthusiasm.
She offered me
the Beat Generation,
and I was in love.
She asked me to write,
I filled reams.
i copied e.e.'s style,
stole subjects from Ginsberg.
I tried to find my angst.
I utilized adolescent innuendo,
and it seemed to work.
We met at coffee shops,
and I ordered espresso
served in a tiny cup and saucer.
She had a soda.
The things that she taught me,
the words that we shared...
Xanadu.
second semester
of my senior year.
Straight from the University,
she seemed so
enlightened.
I believe it's called a crush.
We talked
of Byron and Coleridge,
she smiled
at my enthusiasm.
She offered me
the Beat Generation,
and I was in love.
She asked me to write,
I filled reams.
i copied e.e.'s style,
stole subjects from Ginsberg.
I tried to find my angst.
I utilized adolescent innuendo,
and it seemed to work.
We met at coffee shops,
and I ordered espresso
served in a tiny cup and saucer.
She had a soda.
The things that she taught me,
the words that we shared...
Xanadu.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Crazy freakin' Johnny
poor little boy
with a Fonzarelli coat
loaned me his treasure
loaned me his treasure
wore it in a show
next we were both
boy scouts
mastered by a queer
met him ten years
later we killed
a few beers
he had a little
darlin she had
great rack
but i never
put it in her
couldnt take it back
rather drink all day
and shoot all night
rather write my little stories
than have this fight
Thursday, April 21, 2011
People and Lovers
Jimmy Icarus shot speed,
he flew so high.
Blood in the barrel
and bones in the spoon,
he would race to the sun
and howl like a loon.
China Doll turned tricks,
got up and went down
Rocks on the table,
a stem in her purse,
she never really figured
life could be worse.
Irish Red Murphy
followed the Dead
Three hits of kind bud,
and bootleg tapes,
deep conversations
of corporate rape.
Mouthwash Jimmy got
a Dollar Store fix,
a homeless academic,
soup lines for grub,
lost a leg last winter,
left with a nub.
Shelly was crazy,
got married in rehab.
Momma sang gospel,
Daddy played Cash
Raised Pentecostal,
ate pills and shot smack.
Knew and loved them all,
each time, a different life.
Been a student and a hobo,
a junkie and a thief,
but I've known a thousand people
and tasted their grief.
he flew so high.
Blood in the barrel
and bones in the spoon,
he would race to the sun
and howl like a loon.
China Doll turned tricks,
got up and went down
Rocks on the table,
a stem in her purse,
she never really figured
life could be worse.
Irish Red Murphy
followed the Dead
Three hits of kind bud,
and bootleg tapes,
deep conversations
of corporate rape.
Mouthwash Jimmy got
a Dollar Store fix,
a homeless academic,
soup lines for grub,
lost a leg last winter,
left with a nub.
Shelly was crazy,
got married in rehab.
Momma sang gospel,
Daddy played Cash
Raised Pentecostal,
ate pills and shot smack.
Knew and loved them all,
each time, a different life.
Been a student and a hobo,
a junkie and a thief,
but I've known a thousand people
and tasted their grief.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Caraway
I grew up
in the beds
of dusty used
pick-up trucks,
bouncing down
back gravel roads,
over wooden
bridges splitting
rich Dixie dirt
into poor farmer
and wrote bad checks
when he had to.
Sundays after church
in the beds
of dusty used
pick-up trucks,
bouncing down
back gravel roads,
over wooden
bridges splitting
rich Dixie dirt
into poor farmer
size chunks of
sandy brown hope.
Where long straight
rows of cotton
kept company
with cockle burrs
who seemed to arrive
by night in silent
wooden horse.My mother cooked
and doctored and
played with us,
Father shook his beltand wrote bad checks
when he had to.
Sundays after church
at Grandma's house
with cousins and
uncles and aunts
we had our fill of
food and fun and family
and seldom knew
the blues.
the blues.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
The Spectacle
Friday nights
in County Jail
are big.
You can buy
hamburgers and
fries.
Professional wrestlers
strut and fret their
hour on stage
and the brothers,
the Mexicans and
the white guys
all ooh and aah at
staged flips, kicks,
and punches.
I watch them,
all watching,
all boo's and cheers.
I watch them,
killers and rapist
and thieves
and picture them
in shiny yellow boots
and feather boa's
punching and
kicking and
flipping.
Huge muscled guys,
easily as big as those
on the screen,
in County Jail
are big.
You can buy
hamburgers and
fries.
Professional wrestlers
strut and fret their
hour on stage
and the brothers,
the Mexicans and
the white guys
all ooh and aah at
staged flips, kicks,
and punches.
I watch them,
all watching,
all boo's and cheers.
I watch them,
killers and rapist
and thieves
and picture them
in shiny yellow boots
and feather boa's
punching and
kicking and
flipping.
Huge muscled guys,
easily as big as those
on the screen,
they share memories
and talk of
days gone by.
Blonde locked
heroes pinning
villainous heels,
mythology of
simple men in
better times
and the spectacle seems a little less silly to me.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
The Poetry of Night
Slowly, the day
and it's cacophony
pass by, changing
to silence and
darkness in
uneven increments.
Finally,
grey steel and
beige concrete
become
less a cage
more
vestige of solitude.
The last shouts
and bravado
evaporate
as droplets of water
flee, steam from
a hot forgotten pan.
No more distorted
announcements,
chastening shouts,
or guards
final warnings.
The rhyming,
banging,
pecking,
of new urban music
on hold 'til tomorrow.
Unhiding
my contraband
cardboard desk
and lining up
sharpened bits
of pencils,
too short
to begin with.
and it's cacophony
pass by, changing
to silence and
darkness in
uneven increments.
Finally,
grey steel and
beige concrete
become
less a cage
more
vestige of solitude.
The last shouts
and bravado
evaporate
as droplets of water
flee, steam from
a hot forgotten pan.
No more distorted
announcements,
chastening shouts,
or guards
final warnings.
The rhyming,
banging,
pecking,
of new urban music
on hold 'til tomorrow.
Unhiding
my contraband
cardboard desk
and lining up
sharpened bits
of pencils,
too short
to begin with.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Day Labor mornings...
are queasy stomachs,
and pounding heads,
and empty pockets,
and Oh, what a smell!
They are folding
metal chairs
and gaudily painted walls
with an ancient bulletin board,
its loose, yellow pages
barely hanging on.
A creaking swivel
office chair on
the other side
of the counter.
Day Labor mornings
are the hope for
cigarettes and a burger
at days end.
The chance of a bottle
to make the way straight.
They are poor whites,
and browns and blacks
crowded around a
filthy coffee urn
desperate in their
unrelenting itch
that must be daily scratched.
And to those left
sitting in uncomfortable,
unforgiving chairs
still at mid morning,
Day Labor is a huge
disappointment
that must be endured
and repeated each day.
and pounding heads,
and empty pockets,
and Oh, what a smell!
They are folding
metal chairs
and gaudily painted walls
with an ancient bulletin board,
its loose, yellow pages
barely hanging on.
A creaking swivel
office chair on
the other side
of the counter.
Day Labor mornings
are the hope for
cigarettes and a burger
at days end.
The chance of a bottle
to make the way straight.
They are poor whites,
and browns and blacks
crowded around a
filthy coffee urn
desperate in their
unrelenting itch
that must be daily scratched.
And to those left
sitting in uncomfortable,
unforgiving chairs
still at mid morning,
Day Labor is a huge
disappointment
that must be endured
and repeated each day.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Will I be lonely
still when
I am old
or will I
have grown
accustomed?
poetic love
with someone
to share the beauty
of Grecian Urn?
silver haired muse
inspiring my
verse and my soul?
Will my lover
be old with me
when printed word
to everyday wake.
I am old
or will I
have grown
accustomed?
Will the company
of myself be
so familiar then
that I will
be unafraid?
When my days
are spent
with yellowed pages
bent in gnarled
arthritic hands
and the nights
with old fool's dreams
of a family?
Will I know
what it is like
to havepoetic love
with someone
to share the beauty
of Grecian Urn?
Will I Know
the love ofsilver haired muse
inspiring my
verse and my soul?
Will my lover
be old with me
when printed word
I barely can see
or will I die alone
wasted to bone
with no loveto everyday wake.
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