A lifetime
ago
the
one phone
hanging with it's
rotary dial
on the kitchen
wall above
a set of canisters
descending
in size
Flour, Sugar, etc.,
rang in a tone
like all
the others.
A collect call,
my father talking
in that clear
precise way
that he had.
That he used
from the pulpit,
or in disciplining
a child.
Who was that?
In those days
we did not often
get phone calls,
I remember my
mothers concern.
Hayden,
my brother said,
and he was the
oldest.
Father hanging
the heavy
Bakelite handset
back in it's
cradle
gently as
a newborn child.
A quiet stillness
settled on us
disturbing us all.
You must never
accept collect
calls from him,
he had told us.
Nothing else.
Because it was
Sunday and
the service was
over we
had eaten our lunch
and my older
brother asked
to borrow
the truck to go
"riding around",
Take your brother
with you,
and my heart lept.
Big brother
shot me
a look as
we walked
out the door.
Who is Hayden?
I asked my chest
pounding as he
unhid his whiskey
mixing it
expertly with green
Mountain Dew.
My own soda
a rare treat,
clutched tightly
so as not to
get away,
He is our cousin.
Then why don't I
know him,
and he just shook
his head.
He was cool,
a long time ago-
used to come by
and see me
on a motorcycle.
You're probably
too young
to remember.
He is on dope.
Just like that he said,
He is on dope.
I only knew stories.
Hippies jumping from buildings.
They thought they
could fly.
Nothing else was said,
and big brother was cruising.
I stared from the window,
wind in my hair.
All the years later,
and still dirty secrets
of good christian
families with
cousins who fly.
After all of the rehabs
and a couple of
prisons,
I wonder whose
Who is Hayden?
I asked my chest
pounding as he
unhid his whiskey
mixing it
expertly with green
Mountain Dew.
My own soda
a rare treat,
clutched tightly
so as not to
get away,
He is our cousin.
Then why don't I
know him,
and he just shook
his head.
He was cool,
a long time ago-
used to come by
and see me
on a motorcycle.
You're probably
too young
to remember.
He is on dope.
Just like that he said,
He is on dope.
I only knew stories.
Hippies jumping from buildings.
They thought they
could fly.
Nothing else was said,
and big brother was cruising.
I stared from the window,
wind in my hair.
All the years later,
and still dirty secrets
of good christian
families with
cousins who fly.
After all of the rehabs
and a couple of
prisons,
I wonder whose
children
are taught
to screen calls.
I just made it
through it
are taught
to screen calls.
I just made it
through it
and Hayden
is dead.
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